TGIF...and then some!

Omg, this week has been too much for me. Yesterday was a terrible day. Michael Jackson died (6/25) and I had a painful 45 minute review with my little helper at work.

But it is finally Friday. I survived the week, and tomorrow is the weekend to relax, gather my thoughts, spend time with family and friends, and mentally prepare for a new week.

I am not sure if I will be spending time with The Poet this weekend. He is being lame, and I don't think I care enough to do anything about it. It is what it is. I was going to try and help him with some great ideas for his business venture, but I don't think its worth my effort. I don't know what to think about him. Earlier in the week we talked about spending time together this weekend, so when my good friend asked if we could hang out on Sat, I decided to call him and see if we were still on for Sat or not. He said that maybe I should hang with my friend because he was going to be promoting his product in the evening. And its like, how can I get on his case for that? Whatever. I was suppose to call him tonight to discuss further, but there is nothing to discuss. I asked if we were hanging out tomorrow, he said to go with plan B instead, so there you go, nothing left to discuss.

If we're only meant to have a physical relationship, then fine. I will call him only when I am horny and need a warm body. I have had such a draining week that the last thing on my mind is sex at the moment. I will hold off on calling him and see if he decides to call me. blegh. So lame.

So Relaxed....

Its almost 1 am and my little Poet just left. He came over again. This time there was no living room foreplay.....we just went straight to my room. And this time he made sure I had my fun first before he had his. Very nice. Once we were done, 1/2 of me wanted him to leave and 1/2 of me wanted him to stay. Sitting here alone in my bed, super comfortable and relaxed in my sleep shirt....I'm glad he left! haha.....

I am dreading work tomorrow. I have my helpers review. It is from 5-6pm. I think I may need a drink afterwards. I will put out feelers for my girlfriends....maybe they may want to have a drink with me....or possibly some Pho.....mmm, that sounds good.

Oh...on a side note, I have signed up for 10 weeks of Zumba. Totally looking forward to them, but I think I need to purchase a Zumba CD so that I can learn the steps because I hate being the awkward one in the back that can't follow! I mean come on, even the white girls can move their hips way better than I can!!

Ahhh...The Poet

Haha....don't have to tell me twice! So right now I am typing this entry in an orgasmic stupor.

The Poet left about 10 minutes ago. I just officially had my first booty call in the comfort of my own beb and I liked it! Like my mom says, as long as its not a bunch of random guys, having 1 consistent guy can be good thing. I think tomorrow I will have an extra swing to my hips during Zumba!!

So Poet was asking if he could come and "cuddle" with me on Wednesday....so I texted him back and said, "How about tonight?" To which of course he didn't text back but called to confirm he would be at my house in 30 minutes or less! Awesome, cause it gave me time to take a quick shower, shave my legs, and freshen up for him. I decided to go natural....and I welcomed him with a clean face and hair in a pony tail. He came over and brought drinks with him, which was nice. He insisted on going to the living room and watch TV...and I was like...umm, ok. Haha....I personally just wanted to take him to my room and jump on him.

Needless to say, the TV watching in the living room didn't last long. We went to my room, one thing led to another...and boom...he came! ugh. I was no where near being done. WTF??!!! So I let him rest up for a about 30 minutes and then pretty much jumped on him. This time he was able to last long enough for me to do my thing. Overall, it was good.....but I wish he had not come so soon the first time. I think he was overly excited about the whole thing.

So now we will see if I hear back from him, or if he is dunzo now that he got what he had been aching to get for over a month. Personally, I am very proud of myself for holding out so long, but honestly, I am not interested in anything long term with him, so there was no point in holding out longer.

Now I shall retire to bed and sleep like a baby....zzzzzzz

Wow, I am so nice and mellow right now. Hopefully The Poet still wants to keep his Wednesday appointment with me! hahaha.

Awkward but Helpful Conversation with my Mom

This evening I went to dinner with my mom to my favorite falafel place. And I have been telling her about The Poet and giving her little updates here and there. I then give her to latest and greatest about him wanting to come over and spend the night....to which she says, "why didn't you have him come over?". I was like..."huh???"

So basically my mom tells me that it upsets her that I don't enjoy my body more, i.e. I should be having sex. huh?????? She tells me that if I don't see a future with this guy, but if I like him, then I should use him for "pleasure". And then she proceeded to telling me that after having sex you feel really good and in a better mood. WTF!!!

Did my mom just try to tell me that I am a raging bitch and that I need to get to laid ASAP?!?!?!? hahaha....omg. I almost choked on my falafel.

So basically I have been given the green light from my mom to engage in a "friends with benefits" escapade with The Poet. I honestly am warming up to the idea. Because I do like the Poet, I just don't like talking to him because he drives me crazy with all his LAME ass ideas. I like making out with him, I enjoy being physical with him, and we have great chemistry.

I just think its hilarious that my mom came out with all of this. And honestly, I think that is what has been holding me back from having sex with the Poet. I didn't want my mom to think I was some skank for bring some dude she doesn't even know to my house just to have sex.

Hmmm, looks like things will be looking up for the Poet soon. Maybe he can come over tomorrow night.

Oh The Poet....

This weekend has been kinda silly. I actually did nothing eventful. I hung out at home and just relaxed, which was all very much needed. So on Saturday I was throwing the idea of calling The Poet and maybe hang out with him...why not? I had nothing better to do. So he actually had texted me earlier in the day asking to see what was going on with me and blah blah blah and to call him when I had a chance. So I called him around 7ish. He asked if he could call me in 20 mins....I was like sure...but in my head, I was like...wtf?? So he called me, I missed his call, and then I called him a little later. He tells me about his friends b-day party, details are all shady, and then says he would have wanted me to go, and I was like, yeah, if you had asked I would have. So basically this is what I think. He did think about asking me to go with him, but then kept throwing the idea back and forth in his head on whether it would be a good idea or not, and then while he was actually in route to his friends party, he changed his mind and really did want me to go...but...its in freakin Hacienda Heights....which is like 45 mins away from where I live.

So he is suggesting that I drive out there to his friends house and I can hang out with him at this party. I like that he tried enticing me to go by stating that there would be free food and drinks, and that then we could spend the night there. LOL....uh huh. Needless to say that I was not about to drive there alone to who knows where to meet him. And really, if he REALLY wanted me to go, he would have told me about it earlier and we would have gone together.

So I tell him, "no thanks". He asked what I was going to do. I said I was just going to stay home and hang out. Some how I knew this was not the last time I would be hearing from him this night. So I ended up falling asleep early and woke up around 3 am to brush my teeth. I had 2 URGENT messages from him. Both messages were him asking if he could come over and spend the night with me....especially since he didn't have a bed that night. I will need to blog one day about my Poet's lack of bed. He called me around 12am and it was now 3am. He was probably already sleeping.

And I thought, he is SOO incredibly dumb, because he would have totally gotten some that evening had he played his cards right. But honestly, the guy has no game. He could have

1. asked me to go to his friend's party with him. We would have for sure come back to my place, and he would have gotten some.
2. been really bumbed that he didn't think to ask me sooner to go with him to his friend's party and then said, "I am going to go to my friend's party for a few hours, and then we should hang out?". I would have totally said Yes...especially since I had already shaved me legs. But he is just too lame to think ahead I guess.

*sigh* what a dork.

So Annoyed

Ugh....today I am so annoyed because:

1. My brother is such a fucken slacker....and I strongly dislike him today.....strongly! I asked him to mount wooden blinds in the living 3 DAYS AGO!!! His excuse, "Oh, I just didn't have time". What-The-FUCK. He is home ALL day doing absolutely nothing...ALL DAY....EVERY DAY. omg, I need to not write about it because I am getting all worked up again.

2. My staff still blows. Since I am not on her ass about her work, she is going at ZERO miles an hour and is not doing shit. I don't want to upset at work, so I have been ignoring her, but I am going to put an end to it tomorrow, and I will demand she finish what she has been working on since MONDAY!!!! WTF! I think my staff and my brother are the same person!

3. The Poet responded to my "meet the family" text. He said (and I will quote...because its funny and I think he is giving me some of his poetic side), "your sweetness and oh so good wetness. that warm place of yours, thats what I want to meet".

HAHAHA....wow, he really is a Poet!

Ok, that put me in a more chipper mood. Thats what my little Poet is good for.....making me feel better. But, as old fashion as it seems, the fact I have not allowed him into my "warm place" is the reason why he such an eager little beaver....even if all he does wants is access to my beaver!

Current Boy Toy Update

I need a nickname for my current boy toy. Oh....The Poet. So the Poet kinda blew me off last night when I called him. I was a little upset about it because I thought, what a fucker, so now since I gave him a blow job, he is dunzo and doesn't give a shit about me anymore. But of course, I was being typical, and totally Chicking out. He texted me today apologizing for cutting the phone call abruptly. I let him know it kinda hurt my feelings, but that I forgive him.

So now he is asking when we are going to have a "movie night" at my places...aka, when can I come over so we can finally have Sex!!!

I texted him back and said the following: "Yea....you're ready to meet my family? haha...."

LOL....if anything is a boner kill, I think that would be it. But honestly, even if I don't want him for anything long term, I am still not ok with him coming over to my house just to have sex. I mean, come on. It would feel awkward to me for him to do another late night visit like he did on Sunday. I was able to justify the late night visit with the fact he was driving back to town from Mammoth....but I can not justify a late night visit in hopes of just coming over to my house to have sex with me. And I certainly do not plan on having someone over to my house for a movie night and not introduce the person to my mom and brother. How lame is that?

So, if he really wants to enjoy my body, the man is going to meet my family! Haha....I am curious to see how this all will turn out. I think its all pretty funny.

More to come....I am sure of this!