Zumba!!

Wow, I feel so great and energized. I went to a Zumba class tonight and it was so much fun. I was dancing, listening to good music, and hanging out with my good friends. If workouts were like this all the time, I think I would work out more often. Maybe I need to start going to the gym more regularly and take the classes and become friendly with the other classmates. haha, what a concept!

Hopefully I don't get a leg cramp tonight while sleeping! OMG, I am so old. blegh.

Why do I care?

Today has been a shitty boy day. So the guy I dated last year and am now friends with on facebook proceeded to tell me about his new girlfriend moving in with him this weekend. What a dick. As a matter of fact, I am going to unfriend him now. I don't need to know whats new with him because I don't give a shit. Even though I should not care, I do care. And I don't necessarily care because I want him, I care because what the fuck, how come he found someone to call his girlfriend I am still looking for someone. Wtf???

I called my current boy toy tonight and he was kinda like blegh about talking to me. I do feel like we don't have much to talk about over the phone. I don't like just talking to him. I would rather just spend time with him so we can kiss and hug. Hmm, I think all this means is that I possibly don't have much in common with him. Tonight when I called him he started babbling something about taking a shower, taking shit out of his car, and then talking to his mom or brother cause he had not seen them for the past four days....translation to me, He didn't want to talk to me. So I said, "ok, have a good night" and I just hung up.....he was still talking.

As much as I want to have sex with him, I am not going to call him anymore. He can call me next time cause I totally felt rejected by him not wanting to talk to me. I don't get him.

Oh, and I am being such a shallow biotch. Some guy from HS wants to have dinner with me and I accepted his invitation before he sent me his current picture. OMG....I really don't want to meet him. I am just not attracted to him. I don't really want a guy friend. I want someone I am interested. So its kinda pointless for me to see him. I am going to try and figure out how I can get out of meeting him. ugh, what a pain.

Ending to the weekend (Sunday)

ugh....so annoyed. My current boy toy came over tonight and I am on my effn period!! ugh!! He of course said he didn't mind, but I have not had sex with him yet and I told him I didn't want our first time to be on my period. wtf???

So I ended up giving him a blow job. And wow, he has a very nice sized cock. I am looking forward to when I can have all of it. Whats funny is that he is the first guy that I wanted to stay longer. Usually I can not wait to leave or I can not wait for them to leave. But with the current boy toy, I wanted him to stay. And it bothers me that I wanted him to stay. Does that mean that I like him? Well, I am not going to call him. I am going to wait for him to call me.

On a side note, I am kinda reconnecting with this one guy I dated last year. I found him on Facebook and I finally decided to just send him a friend request on facebook. I am not sure if he is going to be into me since he was the one who kinda broke things off with me because I was kinda mean to him. He treated me nicely and I do like him. So for sure I would not mind going out with him again. But I will let him ask, I am not going to suggest it. Who knows, he may not want anything to do with me romantically. And at least he can buy me dinner!! Unlike my poor little boy toy.

I am going to weigh myself tomorrow. I am probably going to be heavier due to the water retention from my period....I know...excuses excuses excuses!!

Sucky Monday (last week)

Why Monday sucked:

1. The lame painter never showed up to finish painting.

2. My lame staff showed up to work today after being out sick for 2 days, and I was so busy, I didn't have time to stay on top of her, so I have no clue what the heck she worked on.

3. I think I upset my current boy toy when I told him last night "maybe" regarding the possibility of me going over to his place for a "slumber party".

4. I think I just ate too much at dinner.

Why I need to stop complaining:

1. I now have more time to make sure that I 100% LOVE the colour I pick for the living/dining room.

2. I emailed my lame staff asking where the hell 6 months worth of BS reviews were, and made sure to copy my boss on it.

3. I am not that into my current boy toy anyways. And plus, I would hate to have any type of accident with him.

4. I passed up on a free Chiptole tonight and did not have a 1,000 + calorie dinner. Yay me.

Costly Changes (sometime last week)

Ugh, what a terrible day. My mom has been sick all day, I made a costly bad decision, and now I can't decide on lame wall coloring. I am so annoyed with myself because I should have taken my time trying to decide the perfect wall color for the living/dining room, and instead of hasty made a decision and it completely back fired on me. And now its going to cost me double than the orginal estimate. In total my money pit of a little house has cost me about $3K this month alone. I am so sick of all the crap breaking down and then having to pay someone to fix it. But you know what, life is too short, I am not going to let it stress me out anymore. Que cera, cera....or something like that. And then my current boy toy wanted to see me tonight and I said no. Honestly I am not feeling sexy, I've eaten like a pig, and my boy toy had a night of bliss on his blow-up bed ready for me. Literally, he wanted me to come over so we can finally have sex. But with everything that has been going on today, sex is the last thing on my mind. He asked if tomorrow then? And he seemed upset when I said "maybe". And its like, wtf??? So yesterday he told me he was flat broke and couldn't pay for drinks, but then today he told me about going to freakin 7-11 for collectible Transformer cups....HAHA...omg...he's right, he is broke. How can I compare freakin collectible Transformer cups from 7-11 to drinks somewhere. Poor guy. I kinda feel sorry for him, and I feel like he annoys me when I talk to him over the phone, but then when I am around him, I can not keep my hands off of him...and I like how he makes me feel. Last night he told me that he thinks I probably taste like strawberries down there...hahaha....how can you not like a guy that says that to you?? Such a charmer he is! LOL. ok, whatever, I am done stressing over the paint drying. Whatever...once its done, it will be done. Hopefully everything will be finalized and over with by this weekend!

The Red Light Killed It (story from a few Saturdays ago)

So tonight a red light changed the course of my entire evening. I went out with my current boy toy....and this one is really a boy toy cause he is flat broke. So much so, that tonight I straight out asked if I could spot him the entire evening because he had ZERO money. I was like, WTF? But I agreed to it cause he's cute and makes me feel good. So I asked him to meet me at Chilli's and he was already there (selling his smoking device to the waitress), and he looked cute. I was like...aww, he is actually very handsome. So he sees me, I see him talking to the waitress, and I just head straight to a table at the bar. He is quickly at my side greeting me with a hug and a kiss. He always looks nice for me, he smells good, and he thinks I am hot...what is there not to like? Oh yeah, he's broke. So we finish our drinks and appetizers, and then decide to go for a little make-out session which got really hot and heavy fast....so I give in and say fine...lets go back to my place. I know for a fact once we're at my house and in my room we're going to have sex. So I tell him, you better hurry up...and he says OK! But as we're driving, I drove through a light and he didn't run it through after me. So I am about to make to left turn towards my house and I see that he is no where in sight...I continue making my way towards my house, and finally once I am like 1 block away from my house he calls me to ask where my house is, at which point I have already talked myself out of the entire thing. So I tell him I changed my mind and maybe we can leave it for some other time. To which he says fine too, but its not like he had any other choice. Oh well. After I received my guaranteed pleasure from my pink boyfriend, I put him away, and felt nice and mellow. Zero regret and absolutely no consequences.

I always knew it....free is my favorite flavor.

Wow, so much has happened since the last time I blogged. I am no longer upset about eHarmony. I still think they are a piece of crap website, and I am over it. So instead I bumped into a "Free for girls" dating website. Its not really free for girls. I just say it is. This new website is awesome. Paying "Featured Members" can send and receive emails from the non-paying members i.e. Me! I decided what the heck, I will go and create a profile, and load some pics of myself up, and see what happens and if someone wants to talk to me....like the dude from the movie "He's Just Not That Into You" said...., "If a guy really wants to talk to you, he will find a way to do so". So if someone from this website wants to talk to me, he will have to pay to do so.

Total cost of this new website = ZERO. Amount of effort = about 10 minutes of my time.

eHarmony Total cost = $175 for 6 months of nothing. Amount of effort = like 3 hours for the initial questionnaire and about 100 hours later for nothing.

So back to this awesome blossom new website. I created a profile and sat pretty and waited. The very next day I was overwhelmed with the amount of response I received. I had so many flirts and emails from paying members, I almost thought someone/something was playing a trick on me. I emailed back a few of the suitors and they are all actual men! WOW...I love it.

And tonight, for the first time in a LONG time, I received an email from a guy whom I was like...OMG....this is who I want. He is 38, 6 feet, white, he's a teacher, and he so cute. OMG....I so want him. I emailed him back tonight, so we will see what happens with him. I also emailed this other dude who has the prettiest blue eyes. I am done giving a chance to men who I think would be a good match for me...instead I am going to go back to dating men who I want. I am just going to have restrain when I meet them. As old fashion as it may seem...making a guy wait, is the way to go. I think its important to always leave them wanting more and looking forward to things intead of letting them open all the presents before Christmas!

On a side note. I had myself some 24 year old lovin this weekend! Haha....I know. Lots of restrain. So I can say I have officially had my first one night stand. Before last night, I never understood how guys could just have sex with someone and be done with it. Now I get it. My little guy, he was so so cute. Law student, nice boy and a total cutie pie....but once we were done, he wanted to hang out and cuddle, and I was like....Ok, get me out of here. He walked me to my car, I gave him a half assed hug good bye (you know the type where you only hug with one arm). He then said, "It was nice meeting you"...and I thought..."you too Jr.". And that was that. Cute boy, I had a good time, got my release and now I will be more pleasant to be around in the upcoming week! Oh, and on a side embarrassing note, I had ZERO intentions of being naked with someone else last night....so I was not prepared i.e. legs were not shaved and my friend down stairs was not primped. Haha...oh well. I don't remember Jr. having any complaints.

Here is to beginning March with a Bang....literally. Cheers! Hahaha....